Hiding Place

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Well, a lot has transpired since I last posted on March 2. I will attempt to make a short story of a long ordeal.

In 54 cents, I told you of having a floater, and then floaters, in the right eye. The next day after that posting, I had a large “storm system” move in over the left eye, which looked like a line of dark swirly clouds moving across a large area of the eye. Back to the doctor. More exams and more instructions on what to look for regarding a retinal detachment.

As the days went on, I no longer saw the floater in the right eye and this was encouraging. The large one in the left eye seemed more stubborn, however. Then last Friday, March 10th, right after work, I did suffer the dreaded retinal detachment.  This required a visit to the local emergency room where ultrasound confirmed the detachment and I was instructed to go to Oklahoma City 100 miles away, to meet a retinal specialist in the ER there.  Another exam (by this time it’s 1:00 a.m.), and instructions to meet a retinal surgeon at 8:00 a.m. at Dean McGee.  It was close to 3:00 a.m. when we (my daughter, sister, brother-in-law and I) got settled into a hotel for a few hours sleep.

After seeing Dr. Shah and Dr. Shuqula from Dean McGee, it was determined that the surgery would take place on Monday morning at 7:00 a.m.. Surgery was uneventful and a gas bubble was placed into the eye to hold the retina down until it could adhere to the back of the eye; a process which could take 4-6 weeks.   After surgery, I had to remain face down with a special face down cushion until I saw the doc again at 3:30 that afternoon, who released me to go home to see him again in a week.

The first couple of days were painful with the sensation of ground glass in the eye, but by Wednesday I felt good enough to try to go to work for a few hours. I was able to stay for 5 hours before the eye began feeling strained and I went home and to bed. But the next morning  I awakened feeling extremely nauseated.  I went on to work, but by two hours in, the nausea was worsening and I returned home and to bed. It wasn’t until around 3:00 that afternoon, with nausea still worsening, that I checked my postop instructions and found that nausea was reason to call my surgeon’s office.

I was urged to go to an optometrist immediately and have the pressure checked in the affected eye and report back to the surgeon’s office. Someone drove me there, and the pressure was found to be 48 (normal range 6-21). They began administering drops every 5 minutes and kept me there for approximately 2 hours. They spoke to Dr. Shah, who gave instructions that if I was not doing much better by morning, I should come back to see him.

My daughter stayed with me until around 11:00 p.m., administering drops every 5 minutes. I barely woke up when she did. The next morning, very little had changed, and Dr. Shah’s office called and said they needed to see me. After a very uncomfortable 100 mile ride, Dr. Shah needle aspirated some of the gas from my eye and I received immediate relief. The pressure went down to 14 and he was pleased. 2 hours later, it was 27, and 2 hours after that, 27 again.  Unless I have another emergency in the meantime, I will see him again on Monday.

Now this is a very short version of all that has been going on. And here is where all of this intersects with the title of this blog post, Hiding Place.  You see, just by happenstance (if you believe in such a thing), a few days before all of this began, I just “happened” to run across a site on which a CD, Lead Me To The Rock,  was advertised to help memorize Psalms set to music, and I ordered and quickly received it.  Now, even though it is perhaps not a polished, studio produced CD, I think it is lovely.  The melodies are simple and beautiful, which lends well to memorizing the psalms.  The selections of Psalms are lengthier than on most memorization CDs, and I think Kelly Crawford’s voice is lovely.  And then on the last track, a surprise! Kelly had included an original song of her own. Although not one of the Psalms of David that we know and love, it nonetheless held Scripture sentiments that fed my soul and would be greatly needed in just a few days, though I did not at that time know it. There is not one word or one note of I Will Trust In You that I do not love. Truly, as Kelly says in the song, He is our Hiding Place with Sufficient Grace.

 

Psa 32:7 Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah.

2Co 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

And all through this ordeal, it has played over again and again through my mind, spirit, soul, and heart, along with other psalms that Kelly had helped me memorize through her CD.

It’s like He knew! Again, He had gone before me to prepare me for something I had no idea was in the future!

If the Creator, Who designed sight in the first place, brings me to your mind in the coming days and weeks, I would ask that you enter the Throne Room with these requests. Please ask the Owner of all, for His good and perfect will; nothing less, nothing else. It occurs to me that in these last 3 weeks before Pesach (Passover), as we are to be ridding our homes, our lives, and our hearts of leaven (sin and false doctrine) that perhaps He desires to remove some floaters from my spiritual eyes and do some work that is far more important than giving me physical 20/20 vision.  20/20 vision, in comparison to 20/20 spiritual vision would be “less” than what He desires for me. So I would ask you to request from Him nothing less than His best for me in this and all situations. For it is my desire, to in all things, trust in Him.

Below, you can listen to I Will Trust In You, and lyrics are provided as well. I hope it blesses you as it has me.

 

I STAND

AT THE RED SEA

WAITING

DO YOU SEE ME?

 

FEAR GRIPS

 MY FAINT HEART

IF I STEP IN

WILL THE WATERS PART?

 

I NEED COURAGE

TO WALK ACROSS ON DRY LAND

REMIND ME THAT THE WAVES ARE HELD BACK

BY YOUR HAND

 

CHORUS

I WILL TRUST IN YOU, O GOD

NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU’VE DONE

BUT BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE

 

MY HIDING PLACE

SUFFICIENT GRACE

NO MATTER WHAT YOU’VE ASKED ME TO GO THROUGH

I’LL TRUST IN YOU.

 

I HEAR

STRETCHED ACROSS TIME

JOB’S CRIES

ASKING WHY, WHY

 

HE KNEW

JUST AS I DO

THAT IN ALL THINGS

YOUR LOVE IS TRUE

 

BUT WHAT I KNOW

IS DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I FEEL

GIVE ME THE FAITH TO TELL MY SOUL

TO BE STILL AND KNOW

 

CHORUS

I WILL TRUST IN YOU, O GOD

NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU’VE DONE

BUT BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE

 

MY HIDING PLACE

SUFFICIENT GRACE

NO MATTER WHAT YOU’VE ASKED ME TO GO THROUGH

I’LL TRUST IN YOU

 

YOU HOLD MY LIFE IN THE PALM OF YOUR HAND

TRUSTING YOU IS ONLY TRUSTING YOU

EVEN IF I

DON’T UNDERSTAND

 

I WILL TRUST IN YOU, O GOD

NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU’VE DONE

BUT BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE

 

MY HIDING PLACE

SUFFICIENT GRACE

NO MATTER WHAT YOU’VE ASKED ME TO GO THROUGH

I’LL TRUST IN YOU

 

 

 

 

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